Tensen

Salam..

yala topik aritok.. waa..marek ku nerimak berita yg sgt tidak bagus.. aiyak.. pelaburan ku hancus.. ku dah sik tauk cne gik tuju ku.. walaubagaimana pun aku mesti dan akan mengotakan janji ku. .. aku yakin ku dapat..

dalam ku tensen tek.. ku tertemu benda tok lam tenet tek.. ku minat ngan ayat2 ya...

...bersyukurlah kpd org yg menyakiti hati kita,
kerana dialah yg menabahkan hati kita...

...bersyukurlah kpd org yg menipu kita,
kerana dialah yg meningkatkan pengetahuan kita...

...bersyukurlah kpd org yg x mengendahkan kita,
kerana dialah yg memupuk kita agar berdikari...

...bersyukurlah kpd org yg menyeksa kita,
kerana dialah yg menguji kesabaran kita...

inilah ujian yang Allah berikan padaku.. utk melihat sama ada aku mampu atau tidak memikul beban yang akan datang.. aku terima dugaanNya dengan redha.. aku akan fight gne2... memang ada kalanya aku rasa down gila2... shock bah.. tapi setelah bertafakur dan menelaah, aku dah dapat jalan penyelesaian nya.. aku benar2 terjatuh dan tersungkur...tapi itu lah yang akan membuat ku bangun semula dan melangkah ke hadapan.. aku mohon agar kau bersabar dan setia bersamaku... dalam susah ataupun senang.. kerana ketabahan ku juga perlukan sokongan..

:)

Salam...

Weekend tadik merupakan weekend yang paling happy bagiku..
huhuhu huhuhu huhuhu
I don't know how to describe it any better than this huhu
This year i'm gonna get married...
huhuhu
:) :) :)

with whom?

this girl :)

Nurul Akmar bte Seli@Rosli
jgn tertipu..dia xpandai berenang haha
i love her..
and i will always cherish her..

:)

yajak
:)
-ni-

Memories

Yup, i also wish that life was so simple... My only thoughts of a relationship before this is
"get to know each other---in a relationship--engaged--married--have kids--grow 2gether"
but i was wrong... relationships are not simple.. trust, faith, love, needs... complicated.. i thought it was simple... juz the 2 of us in our own world.. living our life each day 2gether.. work, then back home to see each other.. problems will rise but try not to blame anyone.. coz, it's each others' fault.. we're human, we make mistakes.. we're not perfect.. but sometimes imperfection is what make us unique.. sometimes what u don't have makes u special.. learn to love the beautiful, we will not learn to truely love.. coz beautiful is juz temporary..


And for this i present u, the most beautiful girl i ever met... not only on the outside, but the inside..

This is the 1st ever pic i've taken of her.. busking at waterfront.. i didn't even have her phone number at that time huhu


This is the 1st ever picture of us taken... nombor satu punya gambar bersama.. huhu @futsal
I thanked Allah everyday for making us meet. Coz falling in love is what makes us human.
And i never regret that i love u.

She love bowling.. it's actually one of the sport she loved beside pool and netball.. now a new sport, futsal huhu

Picture taken in the early stage of our relationship. Stail doe huhu tok lum ada stat kelaie gik tok hahaha agik aman damai hahaa


Yup, this is the most favorite pic i have.. full of emotions.. reminds me of the good days we had.. where everything was simple..
juz the 2 of us..
we can make it if we try,
juz the 2 of us, u and i...

*lagu will smith

Yeah, she loves to take pictures of herself.. and i love it. :)


This pic was taken after i'm back in Kuching from kL..


This is one of my fav, although it's a pic of her having a fever.. it's her 1st fever with me and after that our 1st fight in our relationship before..haha


Her crazy face hahaha (kompom mrepak mun nya diat)


Tok gambar mek 2 lam bilitku huhu nya main gitar ku lamak ya...


This pic was taken at Wisma Satok.. i likie this huhu

I juz love her wearing that dress..

My favorite pic..

Our 1st ever valentine day.. in fact it's my 1st valentine day..huhu @BDC Crystal bowling alley

That's all for now.. those were the days... simple days.. the most happiest memories i ever had.. and i never stop wishing that i will have them again.. sorry if this post will make u mad or sad.. it's not my intention.. coz to me these pics meant a lot to me..u meant so much to me..
i am not the type of person that can show u how i love u..
i'm the type of person that just do stuffs to show that i love u.



- - n i - -
:)

Sorry

I love u always.. and i miss u.. i'll give u time and space. And maybe i'm the one who needs time also.. until u solve ur problems, i won't bother u anymore, i won't push u.. But if u ever need anything juz call for me... and i'll be there..as soon as i can.. but i'll be there.

Time

yalah ku tok...suroh org bersabar...p ku tok kdg2 sik sabar juak... aaaaa... sori sori sori.. ku hanya manusia biasa juak.. i love u owez and i know deep deep inside u still love me. i'll wait 4 u.. no matter what..

madah faham, p seh wak molah mistake sama...aaa.a..a.a.a.a.aaaa...a.a.a.a.a..aaaa.. ku pun sik tauk pahal ngan ku mpun lately.. byk glak di fikiran... ku sik pernah jumpa situasi tok...situasi tok agak baru bagiku... serius...agak baru.. ku pun ngah belajar wak pasal tok.. ku harap dirimu bersabar dgn sikap ku.. ni xtauk wak pahal ni kdak tok.. better i shut up for a while... i'm going to shut up..sori..

luv u owez..
-ni-

Syg,,

It good that u have realized that u have to make a decision.. It's about time u make one..i know it's hard to say and harder to do...but you have to...for your sake.. it's for your future..

Ni redha dgn apa jak keputusan vee.. i love u owez.. but u can't have us both.. one of us has got to go.. whatever the decision is... i juz want u to know...

i'll always love u...and i'll always will..
and...ni akan sentiasa doakan kebahagiaan syg..

if it's not me,
i won't bother u anymore, i'll disappear... coz i want u to live happy with the one u choose..
i will watch u from a far away place...
and i hope that the chosen one will love u more than anything in the world..
i hope the chosen one will take good care of u..
and i hope that u will be forever happy in ur life..

if it is me...i will love, care and honor u with all my life..
i will love u always till i die..
i will appreciate every moments that we will have together..
i will promise to take good care of u..
i will be ur armor and shield..
i will always be there for you..

because, forever my heart will be yours..
-ni-

Dont

Don't kill urself..
u still got people who likes u...who loves u..
Let me..
i got nobody rite now..
i'll go in ur place..

idk

idk y...i have no explanation.. i dunno y am i so stupid.. maybe it's better if i juz shut up..

Sorry syg

i'm sorry... maybe it's time for me to shut the hell up..
i'm sorry... i can't handle the situation right..
i'm sorry... i 'm juz that stupid..
i'm sorry... i'm clumsy with everything..
i'm sorry... i didn't see any opportunities that i should have seen..
i'm sorry... maybe i don't deserve u..

saat yang terindah

hmm...saat2 yang terindah... dolok byk... sgt byk.. suma ku xpat lupak.. knek tok.. ku inginkan nya kembali.. saat terindah.. walaupun realiti sangat menyakitkan...p ku kan redah semua... tiada lain yang ku dapat lakukan selain juz berdoa agar jiwa tok lebih dikuatkan... kerana, dia yang dulu, ... kdg2 ku dapat rasa yang ya ada... p kdg2 ku rasa tiada.. n ku sangat sedih.. sehingga kan nak taip post tok pun susah... blur jak mata..

i know she's also having a hard time... i know she's also stressed out about it... but i hope she's well and happy.. wpun hanya sementara yang ku cerik happy beberapa minggu tok.... tapi aku bersyukur.. sekurang-kurangnya aku dah cerik balit happy yang ku ilang lamak2 tok... rindu ku ngan happy ya...rindu ku ngan 'nya'..

bukan nya aku give up... aku sik give up.. hatiku sik pernah give up dari dolok2... ku maseh maok nya jadi pasangan idupku.. juz tym tok aku lum nampak apa-apa peluang yang ada untuk ku.. it feels like she's pushing me away.. idk why.. maybe ku sik layak untuknya.. maybe ku sik cukup berikan kasih sayangku kepada nya.. ku dah cuba segalanya.. makin ku cuba...makin ku rasa nya menjauhi aku.. maybe i'm not enough.. maybe nya perlukan dia lebih dariku.. maybe dia lebih penting dariku ...maybe kehilangan ku lebih mudah diharungi dari kehilangan dia... ...but..... i know that deep inside her....she still loves me..still wants me.. still needs me.... and keeps calling my heart .. and ... yang penting, ku dapat spend time ngan nya.. happy moments.. semua ku lakukan dengan ikhlas hanya untuk luangkan masa ku bersamanya.. selagi masih dapat.. hatiku ku sikkan give up...aku hanya mampu bersabar..




but one thing i know....she's still the one... i could never change that..
dan itu bukan lah satu ilusi...
kerana tetaplah hanya dia di hatiku..
tiada yang lain...selamanya
dan sentiasa ku berdoa pada Allah agar kau jodohku..
my heart will always be with u..and i will love u always vee..


-ni-

Apa yang ada pada aku..

1. aku sik pandei amik ati nya..
2. aku sik pandey tunjuk yang ku care pasal nya..
3. aku terer nyakit ati nya dgn benda2 bodo..
4. aku sik pandei nk dress up
5. aku sik hensem..
6. kata2 yang menyakitkan hatinya boleh padah slalu la klua dari mulut ku tok..
7. aku sik pandei berkata-kata..
8. aku sik menarik
9. aku slalu lambat/lembab/lambat pickup..
10. aku slalu sik on time..
11. aku tidak sempurna..
12. badan ku senang bau..

tapi...yang ku tahu..

1. aku ikhlas mencintainya seumur hidupku
2. aku merindui nya selalu
3. aku sikkan berhenti menyayangi nya
4. aku sikkan jemu dgn nyanyian nya..
5. aku sikkan jemu melayan kerenah nya..
6. aku sikkan berhenti untuk cuba dress up looking good untuk nya..
7. aku sikkan berhenti untuk amik ati nya seumur hidup ku
8. aku sikkan sayangi sapa2 kedak ku sayang nya,,
9. aku akan setia pada nya..
10. dalam hatiku hanya ada dia..
11. nya akan sentiasa sempurna dimataku..
12. aku sentiasa cuba untuk improvekan diriku untuk nya..
13. aku tauk..nyalah org yang sentiasa ku mau..

-me-

She's the one

I was her she was me
We were one we were free
And if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

We were young we were wrong
We were fine all along
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling
When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna play
You'll be so high you'll be flying

Though the sea will be strong I know we'll carry on
´Cause if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling
When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna say it
You'll be so high you'll be flying

I was her she was me
We were one we were free
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
Yeah she's the one


yup....she's still the one... always have..n always will be..
tiada yang lain selain dirinya dalam hatiku..
dari dulu hingga selamanya..

ni

for u..

Each day that I’m away from you,
I feel so weak inside..
I hope that god would give me strength,
to get me through the day..

And when I lay awake a night,
I’ll dream that you’ll be by my side..
I hope that god would give me strength,
to get me through the night..

It’s a fact I can’t deny,
that you’re far away from me..
But my heart is there with you,
until my life is through..

It’s the pain that I must face,
there’ll be time that I’ll be mad at you..
This is only just because,
I love you so..so very much..

For all the things that you’ve done for me,
I’ll repay them with sincerity..
I hope that god would give me strenght,
to take good care of you..

And don’t you ever cry my love,
we’ll be together oh someday..
I hope that god would give me strenght,
to find a way..

Haha koke lagi..

Ya tuan-tuan sekalian.. malam ini saya dgn si cinta saya keluar lagi bersama. Pada mulanya, kami berdua pergi hantar adik nya sitot (nama glamer) ke lapangan terbang,.. dia kembali belajar di sabah.. kami lepak d tempat tersebut bersama 2 askar yang salah satunya gerek sitot tek... ada bodyguard mek org haha.. pas ya.. mek 2 balit n mek 2 lepak d umah nya sampe petang.. apa mek 2 polah sepetang-petang ya?? .. ahaaa.. vido di bawah adalah bukti nya hahaha..



tok la dipolah mek 2 sepetang-petang hahaha.. aktiviti sehat tok... pasya mek 2 g men pool... sukan kegemaran tek.. wpun pada mula nya mek 2 plan nk g bowling hahaha.. macam biasala mek 2 ... xpnah ekot plan haha.. seriously.. ku rindu mok kua ngan nya...:).. lamak dah ku sik merasa se-happy tok.. maybe org lain sik paham knak... p ku sorg jak tauk betapa istimewa nya si dia... satu-satunya yang mampu menerangkan hidup ku yang gelap tok.. yang molah ku nak idup gik keesokan harinya... :) .. yala tek.. sambong cta...

aku menang hahahaha.. yaja cta pool la... hahah kakya mek 2 g koke tek... mula2 nak try kat pop wave... full agik!!!>.pajak la.. g la mek 2 ke spring tek... org madah sia bez n murah... bla mek 2 di sia... tempat nang kacak la... p nak... gila mahal tempat ya... lu sik jadi tek.. mls rasa... lu mek 2 bergegas ke k11... tmpt mek 2 1st time koke... full juak... tinggal bilit besar jak... ya pun utk 10 org... so, kede ya sik mok berik la... rugi padah nya... p bena wak la...

laz2 dgn hati yang hampa mek 2 g daichi... ya tempat ahernya mek 2 pegi... atas belas ehsan tokey kede ya... nya berik mak 2 sigek room... berik special price... wah... tQ tokey hahaha.. lepas gian mek 2 trus hahaha... p yala... nang xpat celen k11 la...kureng jak tempat ya...lagu pun sikda bez glak... sound system hampeh.. p mek 2 enjoy jak haha.. aku suka dgr nya blagu dangdut aie... huhuh.. baruk la ku mok dgr lagu dangdut huhuhu... aku heppi diat nya hepi... she is a girl who is actually full of life.. wpun ku rasa "so near yet so far..." p ,... bila ku diat nya hepi, ku puas ati... :) ku juz mok nya hepi n x tensen jak... yala ...lamak tok ku mala nyakit atinya... for once i would like to make her life cheerful.. xpayah la ku madah knak,.. :)

so near yet so far... p tok la yang ku paling rindu for the past 3 months idup ku tanpa nya... sora nya menyanyi sebelah ku lam keta... jelingan maut nya... repak2 nya... 3 bulan ya byk mengajar ku... juak byk mengubah nya... maybe mek 2 perlu lalui 3 bulan ya... walaupun sakit... bukan ny jak sakit... aku pun sakit.. p sik nampak nk...haha ku terer napok... ku pun sik tauk either nya still mok ngan ku ka sik...p nya tauk instinct ku kuat...p selagi keputusan lum kua... selagi nya mok kua nganku... mok spend time ngan ku... ikhlas, ku mok molah ny happy...i learn from my mistakes.. ku akan guna apa juak masa yang aku maseh ada utk meng'happy'kan ny.. :) ku sik mintak apa2 balasan.. selain nya tulus ikhlas mok kua ngan ku... cukup bagiku.. i will cherish all the moments that u give to me.. :)

JOGGING!!!!!

Wah....rtok kali kedua ku g jogging di taman sahabat... penin gilak palak ku d umah... mbak g jogging jak la..huhu.. mbak peloh bah.. taman sahabat nang bez juak k jogging...k family jln2 santai.. aek pancut tinggi2... ikan byk.. n tandas awam nya nang kacak gila la... bersih doe.. rasa jamban otel!!

jogging la ku tek... to take off some steam of my head bah... jog ...jog...jog... mula2 jalan la..2 round... jogging seround jak hahahahahaha///... kepak gila aie!!.. hahah.. sempat berak gik ya... ya ku tauk jamban ya bagus... hahaha.. bla dah bis jogging tek... ku ilek jap jalan2.. seh kata taman ya tek.. then ku diat ada sigek married couple la... mbak anak round... anak lam troli ya... maybe 1 taun lebih li.. bila ku diat cdak... hepi jak upa... mmg anak 1st tok huhu..suk ku diat.. ku diat muka2 cdak, ku diat papolah cdak... bahagia doe... waa... then ku terfikir... aku akan nikah wak lak... gne2.. ada anak... ku mesti mbak famili ku jalan2 kdak tok.. g sia g ctok..

p bila ku pkey pasal pasangan idup tek nak... ku seh wak sikpat bayangkan muka org lain... tetap muka nya jak klua... coz ku mok nya juak...gne2.. ku sikkan dapat sayangkan seseorang, cintakan seseorang kedak ku sayang nya...kdak ku cinta nya... time ya la ku teringat lagu mariah carey inda... 'we belong together' huhu sempat juak tek.. haha.,..

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself

I couldn't have fathomed that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself

Guess I didn't know you
Guess I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt

The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't
Hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, 'cause baby

When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please, 'cause
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough?
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up?
Who's gonna take your place?
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me
'If you think you're lonely now'
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
but I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
Crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life

nang every part lagu tok pasal hati ku terhadap nya... gne2 ku sikpat bayangkan hidup ku tanpa nya.. hanya nya jak yang ku ingin jadikan pasanganku, kekasihku.. dalam masa yang sama... ku berdoa pada tuhan
"Ya Allah, tiada lain yang ku pinta sebagai pasanganku selain dirinya, tiada lain yang untuk ku habiskan hidup ku bersama selain dirinya... dan Ya Allah, berikan ku kekuatan untuk mengharungi dugaanMu ini..jadikan diriku seorang yang penyabar dan aku memohon padaMU agar permudahkan jalan ku mengharungi dugaanMu ini.. ".. Amin..

kerana ku tidak akan dapat hidup sebagai diriku tanpa nya.. ku tidak akan dapat hidup gambira sepenuhnya tanpa dirinya.. dan hatiku hanya mahukan hatinya.. jika dia adalah untuk ku... ku akan menjaga nya selagi nyawa ku di kandung badan.. i will spend the rest of my life loving you. If i'm a failure as a lover, i will spend the rest of my life mending it..i won't give up!!! BECAUSE I LOVE U!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

Heppy new year everyone!!.. haha mlm tadik adalah malam new year yang terbest lam idup ku hoho.. ku kua ngan org yang laing ku cinta.. vee.. mlm tadik ahe mek 2 kua biasala.. 3 kali tuka baju kdak org pengantin jak haha.. jgn mare... kakya ku l a mek 2 tek... 1st target nang nak g karaoke @ koke!! haha ku xpnah koke kat kede juak bah... g la mek 2 tek.. 1st g tmpt di suggest kawan nya tek.. pop wave .. g la tek....FULL!! haha.. sik putus asa juak mek 2.. g ke daichi...FULL JUAK!!! waaarrrggghhh... last2 nya pande ingat sigek tempat...(tauk juak ny tek..huhu) K11.. FULL JUAK JUAK!!!! hahahaha laz2 mek 2 g Monster tounge.. smadi pusin2 sik tauk tuju nak...huhu.. celebrate new year sia.. wah! rami gila org.. yala 1st time ku new year rami gia n happening... kakya berkenalan ngan membernya.. palak pun ok juak. huhu.. nang se geng la suma malam tadik.. kotan ku suka diat nya joget layan muzik...ku sik merokok... 1st time in my life!!! huhu.. rokok maseh full lam kotak...wah.. baruk ku paham kenak nya pnah madah ku 'my sweatest drug'.. nang nya adalah drug ku... yang boleh molah ku melayang... vee...u're my sweatest drug!!..

kakya kol 12 ...new year!!! tkejut ku nya madah 'happy new year' ngan ku... i'm the 1st person man!! lu ku madah ngan nya juak 'happy new year'... hepi ku... :) kakya dah lepas kol 12... org cam nak lari2 jak...mek 2 g K11 gik tek.. coz ku da mesan tokey ya mun ada kosong tepon ku.. p tokey ya sik tepon p xtauk la knak tergerak juak hati ku nak ngabas sia... ku sik mok putus asa..!!! ku mok koke ngan nya juak malam new year!!! laz tokey ya berhati perut mok berik mek 2 wpun kede ya nak tutup.. heppppiii ku... terus ku agak nya lam keta... nthen.. ***i'm the most happiest person alive that time***...kakya mek 2 koke la pe kol 2.30 gya... woah nang koke bna la..haha.. ku melok nya... ny melok ku...sambil mek 2 memekak... tym ya la ku rasa mun jak ku dapat stop time.. i would like for that moment for the rest of my life... spanjang ku idup...sik pernah ku rasa happy gilak kedak ya... :)
Allah...please don't take that away from me...

bis koke...nak balit la tek... sebenarny, ku simok balit time ya... ku meok spend time ngan nya pe matahari terbit.. laz2 ku madah "tyk member tak tek juh"... nya pun terus msj member nya... lu la mek 2 lepak ngan member nya main big two, main game pe pagi huhuhu... ku juz bingung lutut nya sakit jak... lutut bah.. mun gik betis len cta... lutut tok bahaya... p nya madah sikda papa... wpun seh wak ku bingung, .. ku sik tyk gik... ku simok nya tensen.. ku mok nya hepi... n enjoy the night... laz2 pagi kol 7 sik silap nya... ku anta nya balit n ku balit... dan juak mek 2 kenak bomb hiroshima hahahaha...then tido... sebenarnya ku simok tdo... ku mok nunggu msj nya sekiranya nya bangun... p yala... knak la mata tok lembab gilak.,.. mala ttdo... aaaahhh... kepak li...huhu..

azam ku tek...
"kumpol duit byk2 and i will always stay strong with u"

dah yajak la post ku...hehe

thank you for the most lovely and happiest new year vee.. and for making it one of the happiest day of my life...to me u're always gonna be my vee...

i love u always... ,
ni