I miss them

Today i started my day with grieve and and a little bit of sadness. Last night i had a dream. I dreamed of my late grandpa and uncles. The dream started with me watching the tv. Then i heard a familiar voice from behind. A voice that i missed so much. As i turn i saw my late uncle. He was calling me. Beside him was his father, my grandpa. They both looked healthy and happy with smiles on their faces. behind them was my other uncle, Emme's father who was also smiling. honestly, i really missed them.

-A Letter To You-

Vee,

Love, a word that describes the chemical process of the body that triggers the mind lo long for somebody, misses somebody and have an affection on somebody. Betol ndak ka ayat tok. Ntahla. I'm happy to see u now yet i'm sad to witness it. If i said that i don't love u anymore, i am lying. If i said that i don't miss u, i am lying. People can say anything about us, and yet we know they're lying. I don't anyone else but u. I didn't cheat on u n u know that. U know me n my principles.

I love u so much, but i'm letting u go. Why? Coz u'll be happier with him. He's ur knight in shining armor right now. He's the one that u'll always think of from now. My presence will only be an obstacle for u n him to be together. There's nothing i can give anymore that can make u happy. I cannot satisfy all ur needs anymore. The whather's changed and the odds are against us. I know that n u know that. I love u so much n that's why i'm letting u go. I know that u will be much more happier with him instead of me. Maybe u couldn't accept this now but time will tell and u will eventually understand why. I'll always love u and i will miss u very much. U have become a part of my life. It feels like losing half of my own soul. Believe me that this is the most difficult thing for me to do but i have to coz its the right thing to do.

I hope both of u will have a good life, i hope he understands u more. I hope that u understand him also. Compromise in anything. One day u will meet the same situation as now with but i hope then u will understand well. I want u to be a better person. I know that he's a good person n he will take good care of u. As for me, i promise that i won't interfere with both of u anymore. I'll cherish all the moments we had together. All of our memories and the love that we had, i'll keep it safe in my heart. I'll disappear from ur world. Don't worry about me, i'll managed on my own. Live on vee.. live a happy life, ..for me..

Oni.

Lost

Seriously, i've lost interest in life. Not saying that i don't wanna live, but nothing excites me anymore. i've no interests in anything anymore. My passion for life dah luntur. Rite now i juz feel like a robot doing what it was supposed to do, do what it was programmed to do everyday. If i were a robot now, how i wish that someone re-format me.

Shit.

Save me, God...



















Please...